Pandemic Era to Me

Probably I’m crazy, but I’m enjoying each and every moment of this pandemic. It is good for my soul, it is the hideout I have been praying for. 

I’m grateful each day I don’t have to say hi to the people whom faces I recognise but names I forget. They all now wear face mask, and I do too. 

I am thrilled, no cancelling appointments or refusing to attend meetings or gathering I am invited to, because social life drains me like nothing else. I like my own space, I like staying at home, get cozy in my own room.

I am peaceful, whenever I am out in the street, it is empty, no traffic jam, no excessive honking I hear from crazy drivers, no drama. Always serene, quiet, and safe. I have always been in love with clear blue sky, and now I notice them more.

I am relieved, for having a chance to take a break from early morning trip to school to take my children, and long way back to reach my work place. This every morning trip will cost me almost 2 hours of my precious morning time.

I am happy in the morning for not missing or having unhealthy & unfulfilling breakfast and feeling dreadful of the workloads I will handle for the next 10 hours at work. Due to keeping distance and efficiency my work and school of my children have to be done from home.

I am glad, my partner for life, has been staying home for 70% of a month, means we get to talk more often, share our stories, worries and whatnot. Amazingly we haven’t had any single fight for the past 2 months. Blessed. 

I am fulfilled, to have food on the table mostly healthy as it is home cooked, and less junk food or take-away from outside. The only food order I make is when friends who try to make a living offering their business. Anyway, I am grateful to have food at all. Whatever it maybe. I appreciate food more, eat less and if I could share it whenever I can with others or help their business running, I would. I know what it means to them.

I am hopeful, people still have kindness in their hearts, no matter how difficult their situation right now. I believe, people with good intension will go through this and come back stronger. My thoughts are with them, I cry for them silently, they don’t know, but my heart breaks every time. 

I am enlightened, this moment teaches me a lot of things, things I would not even comprehend had it not happened. 

I understand that words means nothing without real actions. You need to prove it to show how committed you are to your promises. All the things I used to take for granted before, come back like a slap in the face. I learned that we cannot be too greedy, we cannot be too proud, we cannot be too stiff with our principles. We have got to compromise and change our priority quickly according to the situation. 

Most importantly, we need to realise, not everything is about you or I, sometimes, we don’t really matter, it is people next to us. Look after them.

~niaedward