You're Not There

This afternoon I went to see dr. Corazon, I got the same interpretation with what I got in the google, I was right: no baby, embryo or whatsoever found on my ultrasound report. I was hopeless and speechless, where are you baby...??

No matter what they say, I am sure you are somewhere in there, if only they can see. Dr. Corazon is a nice doctor I must say, she didn't lose hope, she asked me to come back in 2 weeks to do blood test, just to check if you are in there and do just fine.

I really still curious, then I bought another test pack, I will try that this morning. Baby, I had 2 test packs and both say positives! I don't understand if they said you weren't there. I am sure the third one will say the same thing, I just need to ensure myself that I am right, my feeling is right!

Today my breasts are so sore, it gets worsen day by day, and bigger indeed. My tummy is bloated, I feel loads of gas inside. Aside from that, I am fine, have no morning sickness, maybe because you are a good baby to mommy...

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