Supercluster

When I see your eyes, it tells me so much about your love. You feel my existence and you want my love, you want it more. I see your smile, you are happy to be mine, you want me to hold you close and never let you go. You are scared most of the time but when you are next to me, you feel fine... If you see my eyes, it tells you more about my love, the only feeling I have for you that is endless and so true, I feel your existence too and never want to lose you. You see my smile, I am so blessed that you are mine, I want to hold you close and never ever let you go. I am scared too most of the time, same like you, but  when you are next to me, I feel secure , we comfort each other, and I am glad I can protect you and same way you protect me. This feeling will never end, it is in my blood and my soul, it stays there forever more. I miss your little fingers, I miss your little toes, I miss your big eyes, I miss your chubby cheeks,  I miss your smell, an...

My husband and I have decided that I will be back on my career track after 2 years nursing my dear baby. Since last 2 months I got a job here, although until now I am still waiting for the employment visa to be made in order to start. This job I got is basically the same job I had for 4 years, and I am not looking forward to do it, it is because this is the first job I can get after 2 years off work, so I was kind of underestimate myself that I would not be able to get the job I really want with the gap on my career track. Since I am so not looking forward to take the other job that I got, I never stop to send out my resume for the position that I want. Luckily, yesterday I went for an interview for a coordinator job in a sales & marketing department for a pre-opening hotel, and I got it! I am so happy and excited to hear the news and I am so looking forward to join the team. I always love to be in a pre-opening team, so that I would be able to express myself and do everything ...

I dont understand why people have to cheat or betray their love one. Why the feeling of love have to be there and then go away, can they stay forever? I feel so scared thinking that I might lose my love one too, either because of he cheats or I cheat. Those possibilities are always there, especially if we have a very strong nature of a liar. Sometimes a true liar never feels guilty of what they have done, they think it is ok to lie.  My advise is Don't waste anymore of your time by saying you love someone when you dont and keep on telling lies and hurting their heart. Dont you want to be happy yourself and love someone truthfully? Just let them go so they too can move on...  I am just saying, you know... If you dont love her/him just leave, because same as you he/she also needs to get the right person to love her/him and be loved by her/him. 

It's been more than 2 years after my baby was born since I decided to lose weight and I have been struggling to do that ever since. FYI, my weight is 80 kg and my height is 167 cm, yeah.. overweight, I know. I don't dream to have skinny figure, I never like skinny girl. Even since I was a teenager I never did diet yet my body was fine, never gained drastic weight, I thought I had a perfect body shape (My weight was around 55 kg - 60 kg) and I was pretty happy with the way I look. I started to gain weight since I am married, but that was also still in an "ok zone", always around 60 kg to 65 kg, which I still looked fine with that. After 1 year of marriage, I got pregnant, my weight was 70 kg already. I knew I would gain weight, I planned to keep it around 75 kg maximum. From what I read, normally pregnant woman will gain around 7 - 15 kg during pregnancy and will lose it after delivery. But what happened to me was so devastating, I gained another 25 kg on the proce...

Seorang perempuan bernama Alika terlihat duduk termenung, matanya sesekali terpejam dan dalam satu kedipan air matanya menetes, dia menangis tanpa suara seolah begitu pedih luka yang ada di dalam hatinya. Alika mulai menuliskan sesuatu di blognya. Las Vegas, 19 Mei 2011, Apa yang terjadi bila aku bila aku membuat pilihan yang berbeda dari yang ku buat selama ini. Apakah hidup ku akan lebih bahagia dari yang sekarang? Atau mungkin akan lebih runyam? Memang manusia tidak bisa memutar kembali waktu, tapi seandainya bisa apa sajakah hal-hal di dalam hidup ku yang ingin aku rubah? Banyak hal yang ingin aku lihat "probabilitas"nya, hal-hal itu adalah: 1. Bila aku memilih sekolah jurnalisme dan bukan sekolah perbankan. Mungkin aku sudah jadi seorang jurnalis, bekerja untuk media cetak terkemuka di Indonesia atau luar negeri, mungkin juga di media elektronik. Bertugas meliput perang, berita manca-negara, atau liputan tentang wisata. 2. Bila aku memilih menjaga keperawanan samp...

It is not easy at all to have a good communication in our relationship. We are limited by our time and our energy to actually do little bit of proper conversation between us. Sometimes technology becomes a major cause of all this. We are stuck on Facebook, BBM, or television when we actually supposed to be talking to each other. We chose to drop each other emails or text messages when we actually can tell our messages directly. What is wrong with us? Where is the sense of socialism, where it is mentioned that the basic human needs is to interact with each other.

I don't know how those people who suffered from infidelity gain their trust back for their spouses. Did it ever go away? I mean the pain and the distrust? I can't imagine how hurt it may feel when we know someone who loves us so dearly turned out to be someone who hurts us the most, and sometimes they don't even know what they are doing and they feel that they still love us same way before. I am talking about infidelity, yes: betrayal. When our spouse loves someone else. This thing really does happen, and there is no guarantee after long marriages our relationship will remain the same. There is always obstacles, the love is put to the test in time like this. When finally the affair is over, the lover is gone and our spouse have chosen us over the lover, there is an important question: Could you take him/her back? Yes, you might be able to take your cheating spouse back, but then what? Will you be able to love him/her the same way you did before the affair? Will you be...

In Indonesia, mostly Mother's day is only celebrated by children. When they grow up the forgot the things that make mothers feel appreciated, let alone mother's day. Yes, I am talking about myself, I don't even remember that mother's day is really exist until I checked on Facebook where almost everyone greets happy mother's day to all moms. I am lucky enough to have 2 mothers in this world, one who gave birth to me and other one who adopted me. Both of them are the greatest women I have ever seen in my life. Both of them take a very good care of me and love me truly from I was still a baby until now, their duty is not over yet now that I am married and have a baby, they now still have to take care of my baby. Suddenly today I was thinking, what have I done for my moms during these years??  Have I made them happy? Nini and Mama Aning, thank you for your love to me, I could never repay you... Love you both..!!

My husband's birthday is in 4 days, I still don't have any idea what gift I should get for him, and the main problem is I do not have the money to buy him something. As a staying home housewife, I really do not have an income, the only money I have is the money for the household and daily meals. I do take care of the family financial and take control over the money but I don't feel fair if I used the money - which comes from his hard work - for his own birthday present, it just doesn't sound right. My dear husband told me not to buy him anything at least until I get my salary. Yes, I start my new job in a week. It means I need to wait for at least a month to get the money for the present. I really want to make it special for him on his birthday, how can I do that without money?? I am thinking of making him something special, like cook him dinner - but I do that everyday already, will not be special anymore and my cooking is just average, nothing fancy. Then if mak...

I am so relieved knowing that there are so many women who actually experience (read:suffer) the same feeling with mine by being a chef's wife. It is not that I am happy for their suffering, I am just happy that I am not suffering alone. Why I say suffer? Being a chef's wife is not as easy as everyone may think. Some people will say that I am so lucky to have a chef husband, my husband will cook for me all those fancy food he cooks in his kitchen and I will enjoy all the foods they everyone might need to pay for lots of money to have them, well, the bitter truth is NO! Oh, Alright yes, sometimes. He comes home everyday with an empty stomach and begs for a food. Yes, he expects me to cook him meals!! On his day off he will stay in bed holding a TV remote whole day, he tries to get as much rest as possible. With all the pressure at work, he wants to enjoy his days off at home and enjoy his wife's cooking meals. To cook for him is just a tinny little thing that I don'...

Begitu cepat waktu berlalu, putri tersayang bunda dan ayah sudah berusia 2 tahun bulan Maret kemarin. Usia yang paling bunda suka, saat Coco sudah mulai bisa diajak bicara, berlatih kosakata baru, tingkah baru, setiap hari serba baru dari Coco. Bunda tidak ingin melewati masa pertumbuhan Coco, dan ingin selalu berada di sisi Coco setiap saatnya. Sungguh hancur hati bunda karena harus menitipkan Coco selama beberapa bulan ke depan di rumah nenek, karena bunda harus mulai bekerja lagi dan melanjutkan karir yang sempat bunda tinggalkan dalam 2 tahun ini. Coco jangan marah, bunda akan bawa Coco untuk ke Dubai lagi setelah beberapa bulan, bunda janji tidak akan lama, bunda pun teramat sangat merindukan Coco. Setiap hari bunda memikirkan Coco, betapa bunda sayang Coco dan merasa sangat kehilangan. Hari-hari bunda tidak lengkap lagi, bunda berjalan dengan setengah jiwa, karena setengah lagi memilih untuk tinggal bersama kamu. Bunda tetap milik kamu sayang, selalu berada di hati kamu. Bu...

I am back in Dubai again after 5 months stayed in Indonesia. In 2 years I had 3 times going back and forth Indonesia-UAE in such a long gap of period of time, and never be able to decide where I am going to settle my life in. The process is just too much for me to handle, It was so damn hard just to settle down with the life I have currently. I hate moving, traveling across the globe to escape from the trouble I have at heart, but sometimes it is the only option I have. I had mixed feeling whenever it comes to packing my luggage, a very uncomfortable feeling. I wish I would never ever feel it again in my life. Anyway.... I am fine now, try to adjust myself again with Dubai which I am so easily fit in. Dubai to me is already my home, with all the busyness, the lifestyle, the facilities, I just wish I can stay forever here.. At least this time I know where I need to stay.. Well, I think I know.