Losing Weight = Mission Impossible

It's been more than 2 years after my baby was born since I decided to lose weight and I have been struggling to do that ever since. FYI, my weight is 80 kg and my height is 167 cm, yeah.. overweight, I know.

I don't dream to have skinny figure, I never like skinny girl. Even since I was a teenager I never did diet yet my body was fine, never gained drastic weight, I thought I had a perfect body shape (My weight was around 55 kg - 60 kg) and I was pretty happy with the way I look.

I started to gain weight since I am married, but that was also still in an "ok zone", always around 60 kg to 65 kg, which I still looked fine with that. After 1 year of marriage, I got pregnant, my weight was 70 kg already. I knew I would gain weight, I planned to keep it around 75 kg maximum. From what I read, normally pregnant woman will gain around 7 - 15 kg during pregnancy and will lose it after delivery. But what happened to me was so devastating, I gained another 25 kg on the process, I was so big. Right after the delivery process, I went straight to the scale and weigh myself, I found out I lost 7 kg in an instance. To reach 65 kg means I need to lose 23 kg.

After long 2 years of nursing, breastfeeding, and taking care of the baby, I managed only to lose another 8 kg!! I am wearing size 18 now, and I really want to use again my size 12 dresses which I still have with the hope of I would be able to use them again someday. I do not know what to do, I eat very less, and I also have so many activities taking care of baby and hubby without a domestic helper. So, I really have no idea why I never lose weight.

Even a mom wants to look pretty too, like she once were...

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